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Just thought i should clear somethings up...

“It kind of took me till now to realize that I gave my heart away a long time ago with out realizing, and I never got it back, at least not all of it. So anyway its one of these people who kept bugging me for however long, I cant remember, I tried so fucking hard to keep them at a distance that at some point they got too close. They became forever and without thinking I gave them my heart.” - Are the same person and its Cody. It took me so long to realize is because we’ve been like on and off joined at the hip for so long that when I got together with Daniel and did the on off thing again to find out he moved on it kind of hit me on the head. I really took things for granted I guess it’s my own fault

- U see now that’s not true... its not ur fault

Yea it is... you would have to know the whole history to understand and I cant be bothered typing it out lol, I might tell you the whole story tomorrow

- Ok... but I still don’t think its ur fault

Meh... me and Cody met about 2-3 years ago via a friend of his that gave him my number, and we hit it off like that, same interests and I found it really easy to talk to him, kinda like you I guess, if I closed up he would keep at me and get me to open up until it because so natural to talk to him I didn’t think twice about what I said because I no longer cared and neither did he, we got together the first time a couple of months after we first met and were an official couple for all of about a month before my mate decided that they really didn’t like him and the pressure go to me and we wound up separating, remaining friends but I clamed up again and wound up trying to shut him out, and so began the on and off again stages, we would be ok for a while then I wouldn’t want to say something so he would get shitty and push and pry and I would get upset and angry and be a big bitchy and then we wouldn’t talk for a coup[le of days then we would be ok again and the cycle continues. it prob sounds horrible but I enjoyed all of the time I spent with him even the bad times, and we were pretty ok and getting better until I hooked up with Daniel and we completely stopped talking for almost three months. it was like the biggest relief to talk to him again but it really hurt to learn that he had moved on...I never told him I loved him because I never really believed in it but he always told me he loved me and I guess that hit something in me so when I learnt he had another girl it kind of hurt but I couldn’t really expect him to wait forever so I guess im still kinda happy for him. meh so there you have it.

TTFN*mock salute*
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