Emotion

i think frustration is my most common emotion at the moment, -haha there is that word again, i actually got called an emo today as ive been on emotional roller-coaster for the past couple of days.- so why frustration? i have always been the person who solves the problems people present me with and i enjoy helping out in any way i can, -i live to please people what can i say?- but once again i have worked myself into a situation blindly, and it appears to be one i can not solve. i have never really dealt with relationships well as it requires trust, -i dont trust anyone,- and i find myself in a position that i want to get out of once again because i am required to do so. it is because of this that i am beginning to hurt a lot of people... i want to end the relationship in order to solve the strain that it is putting on me and to stop inflicting pain on at least one person, yet in order to do so i am required to confront this person, and i am really not comfortable with that. -by the way i happened to go off my nut about this person when i was going through my angry mode, and i would really like to apologize for that, this person really isn't a prick, i just dont tend to deal with things really well.- so its kind of having a domino effect, i get upset because i cant fulfill the requirements of a functional relationship which in turn puts strain on the other party and those on the side lines which in turn makes someone what to kill everyone in my honor. aside from that i have a few other people that i need to take into consideration as the separation will have an effect on them, two people that are really great but i can not follow through with what they ask of me as it will create an even greater domino effect but i wont elaborate on that.

so now can you understand why im frustrated? im like a walking disaster.

TTFN*mock salute*
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