Top of the List

You know that feeling you get, the tingling sensation in the nose and behind the eyes, when you’ve met someone who suddenly goes straight to the top of your number one person in the world list because your just so thankful that they’re there that you want to cry. Well ive been getting that a lot lately as ive just become associated with quite literally the greatest person in the world. i find myself going off on tangents about everything in my slightly fucked up life, without ever considering the consequences of what exactly it is that is coming out of my mouth-or rather my mind- and I truly love them for listening. I mean ive got my friends of several years that I tell a lot to, but they never take the time to listen and always come out with bitchy comments based on weather they like something or not, so I find myself saying less and less. This person listens and give the most valuable opinions I have come across, while immediately jumping to defend my honour the second I feel uncomfortable about something, which I am so very thankful for. So if your reading this thank you. Yet also at the same time I find myself feeling guilty as there are many more things happening in this persons life then I could ever imagine, I may not have the physical or emotional strength to fight for them and for this I feel lost as I cannot give my own useful advice or even defend them in their own struggles. I desire to help but I find myself unable to keep up in order to do so, and I fear the ear and shoulder I have to offer is not enough.

TTFN*mock salute*
LBL